Life

Assalamualaikum warahmatullah wabarakatuh,

I think this topic is very common but what can I say, it's sunnatullah. ALLAH has made our lives this way and remembering death is always the wisest thing to do, no doubt, as the life in this World is just like a drop of water compare to the life in the Hereafter which is like never-ending ocean. Does that make sense to you? Think about it.

Yesterday I phoned home to Malaysia and talked to my father that inshaALLAH I'm going to this Rihla Trip. He gave me the permission to go and asked me to take care of myself. And I also said I plan to go back home at the end of August, inshaALLAH. This opportunity for me to go home came to me when my paper is accepted by a conference in Malaysia in early September. With this, I can apply funding from my college and faculty. This can subsidise my travel expenses, at least. I hope my family will be happy about this too. My father, my youngest brother and sister were in Sibu to visit my eldest sister who has just gave birth of her second daughter, alhamdulillah. Now she has 2 daughter, I mean I have 2 nieces now, but I've never seen them before, only pictures. Hopefully when I go back this August, I will be able to hug them.

Later yesterday, I received a text from my sister in Klang that my maternal grandfather has just passed away. The saddest news is that there was no one with him when he breathed his last! I'm so angry about this because I didn't know that he was sent to Old Folk House. I thought he was with my maternal uncle. This was because after my mother passed away 6 years ago, we kind of not so much contact with my maternal side. Occasionally my grandfather stayed at our house and then to my uncle's house. The last time I heard about was that he was in my uncle's house. I just can't believe that he was sent to an Old Folk House. Yes, he may be grumpy and annoying, but do we not think that we were also very annoying and fussy for our parents when we were little? I pray that I won't do this to my father, inshaALLAH. I was very angry but I know I can do nothing about it. The saddest thing yet to come is that I can do nothing not because I'm in UK but the fact that he is not a Muslim! There are different opinions about making prayer for non-Muslim decease. Some said the Prophet Muhammad (saw) has done it once for the Euthopians but then there are narration that the Euthopians are Muslims. Some said it's sinful to do so because of the example of Propher Ibrahim (as) who were asking for forgiveness for his idol-worshipping father. After jumaah today, I asked Sheikh Abdal Hakim Murad or Timothy Winter about this. He gave me these 2 opinions and then I asked him which one will he follow as he himself is a revert too. He said he would go for ALLAH's attribute of the Most Merciful, that ALLAH's mercy is so vast that HE can accept his servant's prayer, in anyway, no matter how HIS servant has forsaken HIM. I wish someone can tell me what does ALLAH think about this! Anyway, whatever it is, there is always wisdom behind it. I just pray for the best for everyone and most importantly O ALLAH, please give YOUR guidance to my family who is still alive. Amin.

Life is a test, no doubt, if not why there is a Judgement Day, Hell and Paradise? You get what I'm saying? I will write about this more in the future, inshaALLAH.

Wassalam.